June, 2000


14
Jun 00

Wednesday:

The cloud is lifting a bit, but there is still a frown on my face.
I’m noticing the hunger in my gut, and the weight of my forehead…
It’s all pulling me down, I suppose,
but I’m hanging on.

Life is just too complicated these days.
There more communication I have with other people,
the more I realize I don’t know anything useful.
Everything I learn just makes me end up spending more time
learning more things that will end up distracting me even further from other things (more other things).
And I believe myself when I think ridiculously.


13
Jun 00

Tuesday:

thorns
and nails.
trails open to my feet.
political action from far away,
blinding white lies meet me half way.

desperate dispersion
reckless persuasion
an enemy lost, and never to be seen again.


13
Jun 00

Tuesday:

elect me
my platform is rising.
you can hear it if you listen close.

share your songs with me,
folk singer, close to the earth.
I’ll take you home tonight,
and feed you white rice.

trice I spread my plastic wings,
ready to leap.
My faith will plummet down with me,
But you will not let me crash.
I’m sure.


9
Jun 00

Friday:

I’m impatient.
If an answer doesn’t come to me right away, I give up or just try to force an answer. Whatever answer.

I want everything to be quick and tidy.
When something isn’t, it just keeps kicking around in my head for days upon days. I can’t let myself go the extra step to really give the situation a good think-through.


9
Jun 00

Friday:

The gods are battling it out.
Mount Olympus will never be the same.

One god is being replaced by two.
Twin towers, separated at birth.

All eras die at some point, I guess.
Some people are too quick to wanna nail down the coffin, though. The death of a known beast could be the beginning of a greater unknown.

With unknown, there can always be hope, however.


6
Jun 00

Tuesday:

tip top toes.
rock road rows.
sipping sorpulent sores.
suck. sock.
seek.
sea.
monkey.
sink.
roll
down.
dern.


6
Jun 00

Tuesday:

trembling toes reach into shivering water
brown leaves float shyly nearby, whipped by the wind.
laughing children wash in and out over the horizon,
The setting sun burns golden through the branches.

I can smell my ideas floating just out of reach sometimes.


3
Jun 00

Saturday:

Thinking, thoughts, flowing, snowing, down rain from the air.
orange juice peeling down from the walls like lightning ginger snaps, feverish in their nature and wiley like a willy.
wearable fruit.
candy colored suits.

I don’t really know what’s going on in my head. I’m not supposed to know everything, though, right?

Captured. I’ve been captured. Alien presence. Inelegant situation.

Make Love Not Sense.
In Sense, In City.


3
Jun 00

Saturday:

Eroneous feelings.
Those things.
You know?

They make it hard.
Hard it is.
Thinking does no good.
One of those situations.

I’m so direct.
yep.


1
Jun 00

Thursday:

happiness
redemption
rectify
remove.
reinvent
catapult
fly away
into space
hemisphere
exosphere
aeon flux
catastroph.